Saturday, 11 May 2013

Is the inernet going to turn us into people that are spending time thinking about doing things rather than using that time to actually do them?

Like is it almost as cool to put a picture of a beautiful cheesecake on your pintrest board 'to bake' as it is to actually bake it?

Then there is the unhealthy way that everyone posts pictures as though all they do is have a good time. Like its often enough to think thats what thier life is about yet they don't seem to upload pictures of them when they wake up the next morning? And mop the alcohol off the floor? Unless they bearing their sunnies and off to brunch with the girls of course.

And the amount of time now that we are online rather than doing other things. I'm very guilty of this. Like I probably have checked my facebook about 10 times today and called my mum once. and thats only because it is mothers day.

And here I am posting on the internet about it.

I just booked a ticket to another location. Somewhere I will only settle for a little while before either coming back or moving on. I have been wanting to do this for a very very long time. And I just did it. I think what really pushed me to click purchase tickets was the real sense of ending I felt in this place tonight. I am over my flat mates, I was talking to a friend over there and missing her dearly, I don't think any of my close friends are really going to be left here after that and I am nearly getting myself into a relationship when I know that I want to move.

Having booked a ticket makes it real. Well, I could still get a return or change the dates or something. But yeah.
Its scary! Am I going to make new friends? Will I make enough money to save? Am I going to be creative?

This opens a whole new door of lists.
Should this mark the ending of lists?
As I only get disappointed when they never get done
they also hype up some things that I think are amazing ideas and then they aren't really.

I'm gonna write one anyway.

To do before I go:
Maybe move out of here
Tell everyone
Make at least one zine
Develop and take as many pictures as I can
Go out a lot
Sell things
Get things home
Make a nice CV
Make a budget
Only get one haircut
Have a good leaving thing
Get a vintage phone for work
get ink
only have the best selected clothes to take over
Plan a last week with everyone

I need to get my mind sorted also on the attitude I want to have over there. I don't want it to be all big city life and cafe livin'. I want hard work, pennies saved, big partying but with friends. Friends I want to really emphasise. Activities with friends. I want this to be a time to remember. I want to learn things frm people. I don't want to be embarrassed for not knowing I want to be confident so I ask and then learn. I want to grow. I will live out the rest of the year like this and then go to veitnam for new years. Thats going o be absolutely amazing.